“The first time I tried drugs was literally an hour before my call time to ‘The Call’ video shoot,” McLean recalled to GMA’s Will Reeve about that day in 2001. “I was off the walls.”
In an interview with People on Friday (Oct. 16), he went into detail about how he “caved” and tried cocaine with a “friend” on the set of the late-night shoot.
The 42-year-old singer said when his bandmates began noticing his irregular behavior, he skipped rehearsals. “They basically broke into my house, and they dumped ice water on me while I was passed out in my bed,” McLean told GMA. “Everybody started to catch on. I wasn’t me anymore, you know. I was just living a lie.”
In July 2001, the group confronted McLean and encouraged him to seek treatment. He still remembers Kevin Richardson’s last words to him during their crucial conversation: “If I continued using, he said, ‘I will never trust you again. You’re dead to me,’” he told People.
McLean’s trip to Las Vegas in December 2019 to see Shania Twain eventually made him want to change his life around for his family.
“I was never sober. Not for a second,” the Dancing With the Stars contestant revealed on GMA. “And the turning point for me was when I came back home, my wife could smell it on my breath and my youngest of my two daughters would not sit with me.”
He said he’s been sober since returning home from Vegas about 11 months ago. According to his People interview, McLean attends virtual 12-step meetings every day and checks in with his sponsor six times a day while currently competing on the 29th season of ABC’s dancing competition series.
“The silver lining of the pandemic for me is that I can really work on myself, get to a meeting every day and build a foundation of recovery before going back on tour next year,” he told the magazine. “As hard as it is to say, I have zero regrets and am beyond lucky to still be here. I can genuinely say I love myself today.”
Watch his GMA interview below.